dissapointment and i

i was just going through some of my posts, and i noticed one thing, they are mostly negative, or may be critical is a better word to describe it. It bought up a lot of uncomfortable questions. Am i somewhere dissapointed with myself. Am i thinking too much and living too little? May be my regular sarchasm has something beneath it. May be i should see a shrink!!? I didnt think about the shrink part, but it made me think and it still does, as to why this general sense of dissapointment?

People reading this and people who know me, am i a negative guy? Add insecurity to dissapointment and u have me??? Jokes apart, another thread of thought that comes to mind is why the times we think the most are the times when we are not happy. Or let me put it this way, when do we generally think more, when we are happy or when we are sad. Somehow happiness does nt give me so much reason to think. as sadness does. Theres also the saying that u are happy when u dont have the time to think about it. Random thoughts all of these, is there a picture, most definetly i have not been able to paint it.

Think of all the great works of art and literature, they have somehow come in difficult trying times. Is the mind, humanities escape from reality? May be the great artist dissapointed with their lives try to create something greater than themselves. hmmm time to sleep! one thing for sure people i am not as dissapointed/ insecure/ convoluted as it might seem from this post. ... or may be iam being defensive!! :-)